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miss you? [25 Jun 2002|03:03am] [ mood | confused ] [ music | "honestly i would do anything to be with you right now" ] how the fuck do you miss someone you never spent alot of time with?? yes. i miss dj. yes i AM fucking retarded. maybe its really because im trying not to miss sid. so im putting it off onto someone else. why the fuck do i still feel the way i feel about you?!?!?!?! and no i didnt mean dj that time. why do I hurt?!!? this doesnt make ANY sense and i hate myself right now. im crying... and its not your fault. i want to be here for you. i AM here for you. even if it means all this. i really cant stand to see you hurt. you have no idea. it would make things weird and complicated if i told you. so im keeping it to myself. 6 comments|post comment

[09 Apr 2002|07:24pm] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | the clay people 'awake' ] wow. i miss sid. post comment

[01 Dec 2001|09:58pm] [ mood | still happy, still excited ] [ music | "sonya's finishing move" - IB3 ] YES, i know that i posted this in volitilechaos, but im just soo happy that i want EVERYONE to read it. like people that are too damn lazy to put me on their friends lists. or didnt want to and were like. thank god, no more posts from that deftonesducky freak. well HA FUCKING HA!!! here i am to fuck up your friends page!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wooot!!!! whhhhhhhhhheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! O My Gawd!!!! yesterday was the best day EVER. i swear. soo here goes. first i went on a fieldtrip. i went to the visionary art museum. that is the coolest museum ive been to. its got the coolest art ive seen in a long time. theres this piece called "cosmic christ" it is the COOLEST thing ive seen. me and nate and christina and chrissy and rachel were gonna steal it. its THAT awesome. so then we went to the inner harbor and had an hour for lunch. me and amanda. and britney and missy went to hooters!!!!!!!!!! woooot!! like. it was supposed to be all of us (nate, chrissy, christina, missy, britney, antonio, me, stephanie, ray, amanda, rachel and sarah) and we told them it was britney's birthday so the hooters girls came over and sang happy birthday to her and gave her balloons and we took pictures then we had all of them come over and we had a picture taken with them. (that was soooo awesome.) so then we (me amanda britney and missy) walked to barnes and noble and looked at the cds and then we all met up at 1:30 in front of the aquarium to get on the bus then we went to M.I.C.A. (maryland instutute college of art) OMG@!!!! i want to go to that school soo bad!!!! we looked at some of the most bad ass photography ive ever seen and i saw a GIRL with a mohawk. WWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! omg. she was HOT! and.. lets see. oh yeah me and rachel flirted all day. and held hands while we were walking around from the different buildings of the college. and then on the way back to the bus we all saw this awesome and perfect rainbow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! omg it was soooo pretty. um the bus ride was fun we all sang and whatnot and looked at antonios porn that he got from barnes and noble. lol. it was supposed to be a car magizine but there was a lot of naked chicks in it too. lol. so . got home. at 4:30. then talked to kiel a bit, then lulu, then went to woods. i had the best time at woods ive had like. ever. :) we walk up (me and lulu) and the FIRST person i saw was ryan brooks. (omg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) if you know the whole story of us that would make so much more sense. but anyways.. hugged him and brendan and got glitter all over them. hehe. and then ryan was telling me how he went to my house (grandparents) to give me a flyer for tonight. but he didnt see me get off my bus. (MEANING HE WAS WAITING FOR ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)(*dies*) and how he went around and put flyers in everyones mailbox. *HA! mailman i got them before you did!!* hehee. talked to them a bit and then ryan told me i needed to buy a IB3 cd. but i didnt have any money so he wrote on my hand "give this girl a free IB3 cd" *Ryan* hehehehe. (and yes i did get my free IB3 cd.) :) sooo... went to talk to zack and introduced some people from GBHS to lulu. (zack, adrian, garret and i pointed out lauren).. then met this guy .. who was a little hottie. lol.. he looked SO much like a mix between wade and jeremy martin. and somehow. I really dont know how. but. he was hot. and had awesome fucking hair and a anti-flag shirt (with a MOHAWK on it.) hehe. so i talked to him a bit and he seemed really cool. but. hes a FRESHMAN at north county. soo... i dunno. oh yeah. thats Tom. hhee... then somewhere in there.. josh (simms) came walking over to me. and i was kinda scared that he was.. coz we havent talked in a while and i wasnt sure what he thought of me.. so i was kinda thinking o my god hes gonna hit me. BUT! he hugged me and kinda fell on me and was dragging his feet and stuff and i ALMOST fell over. but i didnt and that would have looked really bad anyways. lol. soooo.. i talked to him for a bit and that was really cool. josh is always fun to talk to. and he told me lyndzee wanted to talk to me. so i thought that was cool and wanted to talk to her. sooo.. i dont remember now. but somehow i was talking to ryan and brendan again then went to brendans car to put my sweatshirt in it. then me and lulu were talking to this guy (in a tie) *drool* about our earrings and stuff and he was reeeally cool too. (william) tooo bad he turned out to be gay. hehehe. so then nanci and ryan and nick and matt came up to us and we talked to them a bit and i took matt's bondage belt. (HEY SID I JINGLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) muhahahaha!!! oh and i had a tie on too. (thank you lulu) so i think i looked cute. :) if you saw me. i think you would have thought so too. :) and lyndzee had come up to me to talk to me but i was in the middle of a paragraph to william and i didnt want to lose my train of thought so i told her to hold on but it took too long and i felt like i blew her off and i didnt. coz i did want to talk to her. anyways.. talked to them (ryan, nan.. etc.) til IB3 was starting then went inside and got myself a spot in the front row. :):) and I WAS SO FUCKING EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!! i was dancing and singing the WHOLE time. but my boobs stayed in my shirt this time. i love IB3 so much. im sad they are "no more". *cries* ... um. i love the new songs but i love the old songs so much more! and lets see.. hmm.. they did somewhere over the rainbow! that was sooo great! i remember when they played that a loong time ago. hehe. and um.. chick magnet of course. and i got MY FAVORITE SONG IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD DEDICATED TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *SINGING* SEA MONKEYS THEY DO IT DO IT WATCH. SEA MONKEYS THEY DO IT DO IT WATCH. god i love that song. i know all the words but i dont feel like typing them out. but ryan was like im gonna dedicate this song to this girl *points to me* coz she was in my geetar class coz i played this and she would sing it like everyday. *me and ryan with huge fucking smiles* *me feeling special* heeeeeee. sooo. anyways. the show was great if you missed it. you should feel bad coz it was just great. and barbie girl is still so great. and all i got to say is *rarrarrarrarrarrarrarrarrar!!!!!!!!!i have a big penis!!!!!!!rrarrarrarrarrarrarr!!!!ive got biiig balls!!!!!!rrarrarrarrarrarrarr!!!!!josh has a great big vagina!!!!!!rrarrarrarrarrarrarr!!!!!!!! rar, rar, rar? rrarrarrarrarrarrarr* *falls off chair coz shes laughing sooo hard* (oh yeah thats the "hardcore song") aaaaaaannnnnnnnyyyyyyyywaaaaaaaaayyyyyyysssssssss.. um.. was leaving and i got to talk to lyndzee and that was cool coz we kinda resolved everything. and it was cool talking to her and in that 10 minutes i could tell just how much she has fucking changed. and i mean that she changed in a good way. oh it was so great. so then ryan came over to say bye and oh god i fucking missed him. anyways. so we hugged and i kissed his neck and he kissed my cheek and i kissed his cheek and he told me he was in this other band already and they were gonna go on tour and they tour with like. mxpx and new found glory and i told him i had to go with him and he had to let me be his "groupie" and he was like you already are. your my cute one. and i remember him kissing my cheek again and me kissing his again. but i dont remember how that came along and he was playing with his tongue ring and i told him. god the fucking tongue ring AGAIN??!!! (back in the day.. haha.. he was the first boy i knew with his tongue pierced and he knew how fucking sexy i think it is and he would play with it to bug me.) and hes like i would give it to ya but that guy's sitting there. (meaning lulu's dad who we had SOOOO ignored so i could finish talking to lyndzee and so i could say bye to ryan) ehehhe.. so.. eh. that was it. it might not seem as awesome reading about it. but lulu knows what i mean coz she was there and she saw me and saw how fucking excited and happy i was. and i mean. RYAN!!!!!!! hehehehe. i dunno. it was waay more than just seeing ryan. and like if you had lived it as me you would know how fucking great my day was yesterday. it was like. so fucking great. *happy sigh* hehe. anyways. im gonna go now so me and lulu can go watch tomb raider. love to all. i cant think of how to end this.. i dunno it was just so great. so. *big hugs and kisses to everyone* manda. 2 comments|post comment

last entry [25 Nov 2001|03:26pm] [ mood | im happy. and thats a good ] [ music | thing. but. the reason im happy.. isnt allowed to do this ] well i have a new sn. and new journal. and email @hotmail.com volatilechaos il still check my deftonesducky mail for a bit. but. try to use the new one. post comment

volatile. [25 Nov 2001|12:44pm] [ mood | nauseated ] [ music | the crystal method "now is the time" ] um.. i need constant change. i get bored very easily. with everything. music(thats more random), people(wade), clothes(raverness), places(woods), colors(blue). i mean everything. thats why.. i am dying me hair today. (hopefully) (change number 1!!!!) and changing my sn. (journal is soon to come) i noticed a pattern though. about every 6 months i go from "cute and happy" to "not so cute, not so happy". i mean look at my past screen names. coalchamberoddity, fmoss5, chamberchild, fuzzytape, terriblelie, deftonesducky. (and one soon to come. i dont wanna post it before i *have* it.) i was just wearing beads and gummi bracelets for a while.. now im wearing my bondage ring and spikes again. my orange and yellow necklace was CHOKING me last night. and yet its not actualy tight on my neck. ugh. blaaaaaaah. i cant change anything else so im just gonna change me. i hope i like the outcome. does this make any sense to anyone? 5 comments|post comment

[24 Nov 2001|07:21pm] [ mood | bored ] [ music | cousin oliver "share" ] i forgot what i was gonna write about. like i didnt turn on the computer until like.. 5. so.. i forgot what i was gonna write last night.. and this morning. uumm.. i went to bed at 4 am.. only coz i finaly got fed up with there being nothing on tv. i mean jesus!! friday night 3/4 am.. and no movies, no cheesy porn, no good videos. NOTHING. and . i get like 2 hbos and 4 shotimes. sooo.. there was definitly nothing on. i went to stephs before that... my god. dont put 9 people in a room that are all those kind of people that need to be the center of attention. (myself included. so no one take offense to that).. coz DAAAMN its loud and DAMN i had a headache when i got home. hehe. i had fun tho. wish i coulda stayed. oh well.. um. today.. went to "valley view farms" to look at xmas tree decorations. um.. fun? NOT. oh well. me want GOOD junk food. like.. cookies. or pie, or something.. i dunno. im not hungry but i just want something to nibble. and .. ooh.. KETTLE KORN would be nice... but me no have any.. or. MINT CHOCOLATE CHIP ICE CREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yuuum.. maybe i get stepmom to go to lauers? oor.. friendlys? i dont care!@! i just want ice cream!! and not VANILLA! YUCKY FUCKING YUCK!!! hehe. anyways. i finished reading "harry potter and the chamber of secrets" now i wanna see the moovie.. i hadnt read any of the books.. so i was like. moovie?? eh... but now i wanna see it.. especially coz i know that little blonde boy in the preview is Draco Malfoy. (LMAO).. i dunno. i like that kid.. heheh. my god. im a loser. 2 comments|post comment

[23 Nov 2001|09:07pm] [ music | rancid 'nihilism' ] post comment

[23 Nov 2001|09:07pm] [ music | rancid 'nihilism' ] post comment

[23 Nov 2001|12:56pm] [ mood | discontent ] [ music | the 1st song from bloodbath rave in blade stuck in my head. ] thank you jan!!! i was about to sign off in bordom.. but. heeey. you saved me. hehe. > > > 1. What is your full name?: amanda herron > > > 2. What color pants are you wearing right now? the blue "evil pants" dont ask. > > > 3. What song are you listening to right now?: mazzy star "fade into you" > > > 4. What are the last four digits of your phone > > number?: um... 4441. > > > 5. What was the last thing you ate? pumpkin pie > > > 6. Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend?: no and im happy about it. woot! go me! > > > 7. If you were a crayon, what color would you want > > to be and why: macaroni and cheese.. hahha not. (that is a crayon though) i would bee..... one of those hybrid two color crayons. black and red. coz those are my favorite colors. > > > 8. Where would you like to go on your honeymoon? a beach. where you walk out of the little. mini-house onto the sand and its so beautiful it takes your breath away. thats where i wish i was now anyways. > > > 9. Who do you want to spend the rest of your life with? me.. or someone i wont get sick of. > > > > 10. Do you like snow, sun or rain?: sun, and sun+rain coz that = rainbows. > > > 11. How is the weather right now?: cold > > > 12. Last person you talked to on the phone? uh. i havent used the phone today. the last person i talked to was sid though. (aim) > > > 13. What are the first things you notice about the > > opposite sex?: how loud they are. how much taller they are than me, clothes, reallllly noticable stuff like that. then.. it goes to faces. eh. whatever. > > > 14. Do you like the person that sent you this? : me luv jan.. hehe i stole it from him though. > > > 15. How are you today? not good. all i need is a lobotomy and some tights. > > > 16. Your favorite drink? probaly code red. > > > 17. Alcoholic: no 18?? > > > 19. favorite sport?: skateboarding > > > 20. What makes you happy?: being around other happy people. > > > 21. What's the next CD you're going to get?i want.. cold - 13 ways to bleed onstage, and the old kittie. and the blade soundtrack.. and death in vegas. hehe. > > > 24. What is your eye color? green > > > 25. What is your hair color?: blonde, brown, white, orange? > > > 27. Do you wear contacts? yes > > > 28. Any siblings and their ages?:2 sisters, 11 and 2 3????? > > > 29. What school do you attend?: gbhs > > > 30. What religion are you?: im not. > > > 31. What do you like to do: hang out with people , dance, > > > 32. What's the best advice given to you? : love = pain, pain is confusion and death, dont fall in love. (*cough* thank you for reminding me that *cough*) and dont trust anyone. > > > 33. Have you ever won any special awards: dont member. > > > 34. What are your future goals?: no future. > > > 36. Favorite Group?: linkin park. > > > 37. Favorite food?: fajitas > > > 38. Favorite movie?: hmm....i cant pick fight club(i want you to hit me as hard as ou can), slc punk,(bob, you are jesus), hackers, (uh.. mr. the plague.), um.. i dunno. > > > 39. Favorite days of the year? halloween has lost its excitement. xmas too. even my bday. i dunno. > > > 40. Why is that your favorite day: ^^^^ > > > 41. Do you like to dance? yes > > > 42. Are you shy to ask someone out?: yeah. i would. but no ones worth it right now.. > > > 43. Worst sickness you ever had?: when i puked for 2 weeks straight and couldnt make a fist i was so weak. but .. no one knew what it was.. not mono, not strep throat... just was siiiiiiiiick. > > > 44. What's the stupidest thing you've ever done?: kept breathing as a baby. > > > 45. Do you like scary or happy movies better?: scary > > > 46. Phone or person?:person > > > 47. Summer or winter?: summer, definently > > > 48. Hugs or kisses?: kisses > > > 49. Have you ever been in love?: yep. > > >50. Did it hurt?: yes. > > > 52. Is golf a sport?: not to me. > > > 53. Do you want your friends to write back?: steal this survey! > > > 54. Who is least likely to respond?: sidney. > > > 55. Who is most likely to respond?: lulu. 5 comments|post comment

[23 Nov 2001|12:28pm] dammit. was obsessed with rancid.. and all things punk/ska. then watched this thing about raves and heard some of the best music ive heard in a while. want to find a rave. soooooo bad. punk too angry for me. why cant i make up my fucking mind????????? and just go with one thing for a while.? i mean i know i can do both. i can like both. but its easier to decide what to wear in the morning when you just pick one. actually.. i take that back. fuck clothes. whatever. post comment

[22 Nov 2001|09:56pm] [ mood | ecstatic ] [ music | rancid 'roots radicals' ] what the fucking fuck!?!?!?!??!?! I WAITED ALL FUCKING DAY FOR ONE SONG!! THEN THE END OF THE SHOW BEING CUT OFF BY A MAN SHOW COMMERCIAL?!?!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? AND TIM WAS ALL WITH OUT SHIRT AT THE END.. BUT NOOOOO.. COULD YOU SEE??? NOOOO COZ THE SCREEN SHRUNK.. WELL IM HAPPY. BUT. PISSED. ME HAPPY. TIM IS SO FUCKING HOT THOUGH SO ITS OKIES. post comment

[22 Nov 2001|09:47pm] okie. i just saw david spade get a tattoo.. i want hobbs tattoed on me.. hehe.. anyways.. where is rancid?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? post comment

[22 Nov 2001|07:58pm] [ mood | anxious ] [ music | tinc 'capitalism stole my virginity" ] wAiTiNg FoR rAnCiD.*.*.*.*.*.*.*. wAiTiNg WaItInG wAiTiNg.*.*.*.*.*.*SUCKS! post comment

obsessed??? [22 Nov 2001|07:35pm] [ mood | weird ] [ music | rancid 'listed mia' ] not obsessed!! not obsessed!!! not obsessed!! there was lots of mohawks.. but they no show up and so far this one still works..but propbaly not no more... grr.... hey brendan heres your chick with a mohawk!! :):) this is cute.. if it shows up. post comment

[22 Nov 2001|06:46pm] [ mood | aggravated ] [ music | fear 'i love livin in the city' ] know what i hate more than my internet that keeps fucking cutting out??? FROZEN whipped cream. fuck that. post comment

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muhahahaaa. [22 Nov 2001|05:37pm] [ mood | amused ] [ music | system of a down 'needles' ] 70% - 80% (PSYCHOTIC) HAHAHHA!?! ME, PSYCHO? FUCK YOU! HAHAHAAA! FUCK YOU AND KILL THEM ALL! You're completely fucking deranged and intend to take the whole world down in flames. Sick, twisted, violent and proud of it. Take the DeathKiddy Test! post comment

[21 Nov 2001|10:06pm] [ mood | naughty ] [ music | system of a down "metro" ] *A - Age: 16 (i dont wanna grow up.. but i wanna be older) *B - Best Quality: optimism *C - Choice of Meat: turkey *D - Dream Date: as of this moment?? a sexy punk with a mohawk that just wants to fuck. with NO promise of any emotional attachment EVER. *E - Exciting Adventure: my closet *F - Favourite Food: fajitas (which i had today.. the hilight of my day) *G - Greatest Accomplishment: still having hair *H - Happiest Day of your life: Yet to come, and when it does, I don't think I'll recognize it. (stole this.. but i liked it.) *I - Interests: music. *K - Kool-Aid: great bludini.. or blue colored cherry. *L - Love: = suicide *M - Most Valued thing you own: cat in the hat *N - Name: amanda *O - Outfit you love: anything comfy *P - Pizza toppings:pineapple and pepporoni.. i dun like it with ham. *Q - Question Asked to you the most: are you serious? i thought you were 12!, no.. are you mad at me? or why?! *R - Radio Station: 99.1whfs *S - Sport: skateboarding *T - Television Show: spongebob and as told by ginger (at the moment) *U - Ur favourite song: system of a down "forest" or "shimmy" (at the moment) *V - Video: hackers, fight club. eh.. *W - Winter: Proof that mother nature isn't perfect *X - Xylophone: one of the only words i can think of that starts with x. *Y - Year born: 1985 *Z - Zodiac Sign: Aries 3 comments|post comment

[21 Nov 2001|09:46pm] [ mood | apathetic ] [ music | cold "she said" ] General Hippy or Yippy Hippy 60's or 70's late 60s were awesome Night or day? Night! America or Canada America America or Soviet Union (when it existed) America America or modern Russia America Music Favorite band/stuff deftones, linkin park, nine inch nails, kittie, rancid. Do the monkees rock yes Ever seen Alice's Restaurant Nope Bob Dylan or Ani Difranco Bob dylan!!!! Favorite LP joan jett and the blackhawks. i love rock n roll Have an LP player yep Best concert seen? the 2001 hfstival.. was good. but.. i liked .. 99 with SILVERCHAIR and ORGY lots. Punk or pop punk! Can music change the course of current events? i hope so Drugs Ever been stoned? nope Ever done a hallucinogen? yes. gimme. Ecstacy? nope Tripping or stoned - tripping. 1, coz thats all ive done. and 2 sounds more fun. Are you high now? nope Can you think of over 20 synonyms for marijuana? (((note:i could have told you all of these except 2 of these!! and ive never smoked it. sooo.. hehe.. but i stole em all from lulu's survey. coz.. theres no way i woulda typed em again. .. hehe.))) pot, reefer, mary jane, poy , smoke dope, grass, hash, smoke, dope, cannbis sativa, indoo (sp?), cronic, kind bud, kevin brown, phil, bud, weed, ganja, that wacky tabacy, marihuana, smot. Ever tried hard drugs? LSD is the hardest thing ive done, and its not really all that bad Have you ever overdosed? yep... well.. does alchol count? Ever been arrested for drugs?no Spirituality Is there a god? goddess Are you part of an organized religion? nooope Are you part of a rather non-mainstream religion kind of Have you ever tried to start your own religion yes!!!!! Was it centered on nature, or religion? nature post comment

[21 Nov 2001|09:06pm] [ mood | apathetic ] [ music | system of a down -forest ] if one more thing could go wrong in one day... woke up late... 10:30 as apposed to my usual 8:00. thought i was bleeding... (NOT!!!) WOOOOOT!! (ooohhh... shit. maybe a bad thing???) no. um.. yeah. and then i found out wade had just called... so i called him and SUPRISE!! his cell phone was finally not dead. talked to him for about 20 awkward minutes. *summary of convo* -we broke up (yes. we had been going out.) -he sold me to ben as a slave (?!?!) wont tell me how much either. -were still friends. (BULLSHIT!!) so... that sucked.. but... i was getting REALLY sick of fighting with him. and him being all paranoid, jealous, and [ ] this close to being just plain mentally abusive. (not as bad as it sounds. but thats how it was starting to feel.. ) whatever. soo... went to get dressed. my favorite shirt.. (lucky 13) has stuff on it that WILL NOT COME OUT!!!! i washed it 4 times!!!! the picture on my blues clues shirt is coming off.. so i tryed to iron it and "melt" it.. and wound up fucking it up more!... aaarrgghhh.. then.. by now its only 11:30. then went to lunch with step mom and sis and half sis.. actualy nothing went wrong... came home.. found out i was going to my dads.. at 6 and not coming home til SUNDAY. then about 15minutes after being home... sid stopped by to give me my shirt.. i didnt get to see him :( but.. i saw him walk away. eh. i didnt need that today!!!! argh! not talking to him is killing me.. and whatever.. so.. now i guess hes *gone gone*.. i dont think he has any more of my stuff.. well except my... but.. he can keep those or throw them away or whatever. then... still had to clean.. i squashed 4 spiders today.. thats how numb i am right now.. that i actually killed 4 spiders.. 1 in my room and 3 outside.. so i cleaned.. blah. didnt fuck anything up then.. and i miss lulu! she hasnt been home for 2 days!!! aaahh!!! and kiel called me.. we talked about everything thats up with me and with him.. hes drinking waaaaay too much.. im worried about him... .. he wants me to come hang out with him one night... um... that could be fun. played zelda til step mom came to pick us up.. im on the last fight with gannondorf of zelda 64. hehe.. fun. gawd!! i almost beat it too.. but i ran out of magic!! FUCK! um.. anyways.. so now im here.. and um. yeah. might be bleaching my hair friday. kinda want to shave my head. or slit my throat. feeling like life is in one of those redundant things again.... something good needs to come along. fast. 4 comments|post comment

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